Secrets Need Somewhere to Live

Privacy, Secrecy, and What Happens When Part of a Life Goes Underground

Secrets need somewhere to live. The question is how much of the house we are willing to give them.

Secrets need somewhere to live.

They don't float independently through the atmosphere. We have to put them somewhere, so we construct a small room inside ourselves, put the secret in it, close the door, and become surprisingly skilled at walking past that door as though there is nothing particularly interesting on the other side.

Human beings are quite good at this. We can love our families while keeping something important from them. We can go to work, mow the lawn, laugh with friends, attend church, remember birthdays, pay the electric bill, and carry on an entire second conversation inside ourselves that nobody else can hear.

Sometimes that is perfectly healthy.

After all, not everything inside us belongs to everyone else.

The more interesting question is what happens when the room we have built is not protecting our privacy, but protecting something from being seen.

Privacy and Secrecy Are Not the Same Thing

Adults are entitled to privacy. You do not owe another person access to every thought that crosses your mind, every memory you carry, every feeling you haven't decided what to do with, or every sexual thought that occurs to you. Some conversations belong between you and another person. Some experiences are yours to disclose when and if you decide disclosure is appropriate.

Healthy intimacy does not require psychological nudity.

In fact, someone who cannot tolerate another person's private interior world may have a boundary problem of a different kind. Autonomy matters. Mature relationships require us to accept that even the people we love most remain separate people whose minds we do not own.

So the distinction between privacy and secrecy cannot simply be whether someone else knows.

A better question is: What is the not-knowing accomplishing?

Privacy protects appropriate boundaries. Secrecy can sometimes protect behavior from boundaries.

Those sentences look almost identical until you notice the direction in which the protection is working.

A Secret Gets a Room

Imagine that you are doing something you know the important people in your life would probably question. It may not seem particularly serious at first.

You're spending more time online than you admit. Looking at sexual material you haven't told your partner about. Communicating with someone you suspect you shouldn't be communicating with. Returning repeatedly to a fantasy that has begun to concern you, or that would concern someone important to you. Perhaps you have crossed a small boundary and aren't quite sure what to call it yet.

Nothing catastrophic has happened, so you put it in the room.

And then something useful happens.

Nobody challenges it.

Nobody asks what you're doing or notices that your explanation doesn't make much sense. Nobody raises an eyebrow or says, “You've been talking about this for ten minutes and somehow I'm becoming less convinced.” Nobody who knows you well gets the opportunity to say, “This doesn't sound like you.”

The secret has acquired shelter.

And sheltered things can grow.

Other People Interfere With Our Nonsense

One of the underappreciated benefits of relationships is that other people occasionally interfere with our reasoning.

A good friend says, “Wait. You did what?” A spouse raises an eyebrow. A therapist asks the irritating follow-up question. Someone who has known us for years notices that we are explaining something with considerably more enthusiasm than the subject seems to require.

Other people provide friction.

They aren't always right, of course. Sometimes our friends give terrible advice, spouses misunderstand us, and therapists ask questions that turn out to be entirely unhelpful. But relationships force our private reasoning to encounter another mind.

Secrecy removes that encounter.

Inside a secret, I can become both the attorney and the judge. I present the evidence, explain the circumstances, decide what should count, exclude whatever seems prejudicial, and eventually issue the verdict.

It should surprise nobody that I frequently find myself innocent.

This is one of the reasons secrecy can become more powerful than whatever originally needed hiding. It doesn't merely conceal behavior from other people. It removes the behavior from the kinds of relationships that might cause us to see it differently.

Sexuality Comes With a Door Already Attached

Sexuality complicates this because sexuality naturally contains privacy. Nobody should expect to know everything another adult thinks about sexually. We have fantasies, attractions, memories, curiosities, and private experiences that do not require public inspection simply because they involve sex.

But problematic sexual behavior can take advantage of that reasonable boundary.

Someone begins using pornography secretly. Perhaps the amount increases or the material changes. Fantasy becomes more specific. An online conversation becomes sexual. A boundary is crossed, then redefined, and eventually the new boundary begins to feel rather ordinary.

The person may continue telling himself that nobody needs to know because it is private.

Eventually, however, we have to ask a more uncomfortable question:

Is this private because it appropriately belongs to you, or secret because somebody knowing about it might interfere with your ability to continue doing it?

Those are very different kinds of privacy.

And the difference often becomes clearest when we imagine the door opening.

Would you continue doing exactly what you are doing if someone whose judgment mattered to you were sitting beside you?

If not, the room may be doing more work than you thought.

Secrets Don't Just Hide Behavior. They Protect Explanations.

Human beings dislike contradiction. If I think of myself as a decent husband but am doing something inconsistent with being a decent husband, I have a problem. But, I could change the behavior.

Unfortunately, changing the story is often easier.

It's not really cheating. Everybody looks at this. I'm just curious. We're only talking. She wouldn't understand. Nobody is actually getting hurt. I deserve something for myself. I could stop anytime.

These explanations are not unusual because human beings are unusually dishonest. They are unusual because human beings are remarkably talented at making our behavior compatible with the person we prefer to believe we are.

Secrecy makes that easier.

Once behavior goes underground, our explanations have fewer opportunities to encounter resistance. Eventually the secret isn't merely hiding what we are doing; it is protecting the system of thinking that allows us to continue doing it.

This is why secrecy can become important in a sexual-offense pathway without secrecy itself causing sexual offending. Most people keep secrets and never sexually harm anyone. But secrecy can provide a protected environment in which problematic behavior, fantasy,

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Published by Thomas Kurtz Counseling, LLC.